want doesn't get
Want doesn't get
poison motherfed
embedded
translated
into ask doesn't …
get, deserve, isn't …
answered honestly
that only that offered
given unaskedfor unprompted
can be trusted (if even then)
else I am indulged or pitied,
or resented, for wanting …
anything, really
Toxic milk
but of course words cannot harm
(or so she always said
answering pain)
unlike stones
or sticks
or expectations
of vicarious life to salve
desolation at least until first
steps to autonomy
through failure
into betrayal
into unforgiveness
18th December 2014, extended 3rd December 2015